2014: The Struggle Was Real

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2014 was no cake walk. This was the hardest year of my adult life. Which may seem crazy because it was also a year of great success. But, it was my first time feeling like I wasn’t walking in abundant favor with every step I took, but instead feeling every emotion and struggle deeply. There were some really bad days this year, the kind where I didn’t even want to get out of bed. I juggled way more than I thought (and everyone around me thought) possible, and as the year comes to an end all I can think of is that it is all  OK.

I could choose to hide all of this and say that 2014 was an amazing year filled with laughter, love, joy, and abundance (because it was all of those things too), but there is something to be said about the struggle. I wear the battle scars of 2014 proudly as I walk into 2015 because those are the reminders of everything I’ve endured to get me to this point. It has not been easy, but you cannot run a marathon without enduring all the countless hours of training, lots of sweat, and probably some tears. Our culture teaches us to mask all of these struggles, when really we should be acknowledging and embracing them for what they were. It is OK to say your year wasn’t all sparkles and confetti. It is OK to be honest with yourself about where you are really at, and it is OK if things didn’t all go the way you planned. Everything you did this year, everything you felt, every good moment, and every bad moment is now an extension of who you are. This is not a rant, or a piece trying to get you to focus on the negative, but rather to allow you to feel the freedom that rushes in when you are honest with yourself. The struggle is not something to be ashamed of, it is your stepping stones, your hope, your endurance, and a huge part of who you are. Wear it proudly.

I walk into 2015 hopeful and excited for what is to come. I welcome all that is in store, and will continue to live in a posture surrendered to the King of Kings. 2014 was my year of endurance.

And I am so thankful for my community of Imagine and Pastors Kevin and Christine Sweeney who have spoken life into me and helped me accept all of this for what it is.

Now here are a bajillion photos of some of my favorite moments in 2014

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Cheers, Happy New Year Xx

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One response

  1. Thank you for your inspiring words and for sharing your struggles! 2014 was definitely a year of endurance! I love that word! It isn’t negative, it’s inspiring and encouraging! Here’s to a fresh new year of opportunities!!!

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